As someone who has faced many problems and faced too many difficulties in life, I never thought I can be a better person after going through a lot of struggles.
Years ago, my life almost crumbled because of the problems that went my way. I never met my parents for I am an orphan. When I was a kid, I thought my life would be okay even if I have no parents supporting me. I thought I will be fine just by myself in that old and small orphanage in town or better if I get the chance to be adopted by someone rich and who can raise me well. But time passed by and no one dared to take me out of that orphanage. I lost hope in doing better with a family and thought that I’ll do fine in the orphanage. That was then someone adopted me for real and I never really thought that will happen.
The family that adopted me wasn’t rich and they weren’t poor either. You can say that they were just average and I was fine with that as long as they will raise me. I was happy when I got out of that orphanage I grew sick with. The people who adopted me didn’t treat me as their own child, I couldn’t even fathom their reason for adopting me. They were both cold and not affectionate towards me. I was fine with that until their small business got bankrupt and they blamed me for that. It’s as if adopting me made them lose their attention to their business and made them spend more money than usual.
I lost the chance to study and make myself educated when I was older. The people who adopted me treated me like trash and made me work for them since they say it was my fault that they lost their business. They took all my savings and used it for their own good, leaving me nothing and not even a single penny. I left their house and ran away from them. But that was even worse since the world is full of dangerous people. I endangered myself, got into a fight and got into smoking and drinking. I almost got addicted to drugs if it weren’t for these people I met in the streets one day.
I didn’t take their words seriously when they said they’d help me with my problems and life. Since I already met a lot of untrustworthy people so why would I give them my trust? I lost faith in people even in God. But these people made me realize that it’s not the people who surrounded me that did wrong. It was me from the start. It was the wrong choices I made. If only I didn’t run away from home and just did something better for the people who adopted me, I wouldn’t have been here and lost the right path for myself. After all, those people still adopted me and took care of me even if they didn’t act like real parents.
Now, I’m finding my way again through these people who helped me and introduced to me the word of God, the morals and the lessons I should have learned sooner. I never thought after ruining my own life, I could still get back to my feet and find the right path for me.